What We Believe In...

I'll say it again that it takes someone who's lost a loved one to really understand the emotions you go through. Yes you move on but the sadness of losing that person will never heal, it will never go away...

She would have been 22 years old today. For her, she wasn't given this opportunity whilst I can't even remember what I was doing at the age of 22. Oh I know... I was wasting those years partying, lying to my parents about my late nights and not being home, being busy about me, myself, my own life. She would have lived a life so differently from mine if she was given the chance. I was living my life aimlessly at 22 and she already knew what she wanted before 22.

She told us that she's an angel that had come to earth on a mission. That mission has been accomplished and it's time for her to go home to God. I'm not sure what the mission is but I sure know her departure has left an incredibly deep impression in my heart.

I hope I can and am living my life better right now than I had the years before because I'm not just living for myself but on her behalf too.

I've had this Home cd by Jim Brickman for awhile but I didn't remember this song until I played this cd recently and the lyrics of this song "What We Believe In" just speaks of my sentiment.

"Funny just the other day I was walking down the street

Stopped into that place you know, one where we used to meet

Thought I heard you call my name

And I whispered on the wind

And I remember you were going

Never coming back again

But if love is what we believe in

I'll see you in heaven's first bright star

If seeing is believing

I look into the skies and there you are

You're not that far

Cause love is what we believe in

Looking through some photographs

From not so long ago

Right now I'd give anything

If I had only known

That I would never touch you, hold you or kiss your face

Feel your arms around or fall in your embrace"

If only I had known, I would definitely live my life differently. On hindsight, I do know now.