The Story of Two Very Different Sisters

I received a lovely gift. They will definitely always remind me of you. What I love most was the card. The title of the card is "The story of two very different sisters".

The card goes...

"One is here; one lives there. One is a little taller than the other. They have two different colors of hair; two different outlooks on life, two very different views from their windows.

Both have different tomorrows ahead. Each is unique in so many ways.

Each has her own story, with all the busy things going on in the present. Each has different work to do, and different demands on the day. Each has a separate destination and a distinctly different path to get there. 

But...

For all the things that might be different and unique about them... these two sisters will always share so much. They will always be the best of family and friends, entwined together, through all the days of their lives.

Their love will always be very special; gentle and joyful when it can be, strong and giving when it needs to be, reminding them, no matter how different their stories turn out...

They share the incredibly precious gift of being "sisters." And when you think of some of the best things this world has to offer, a blessing like that is really... what it's all about."

I'm truly blessed to have you in my life and I'm very happy and proud to have you as my sister. There are of course many things that I wished were different but as the card said, we have our different destinations and destiny. I truly thank God for all the blessings he has showered unto me and I want to remember not to take his blessings for granted.

I love you from the depth of my heart and I hope to be able to meet you in the beautiful shore...

Wishing, Hoping & Praying...

Words just can't describe the missing and longing for you... It just seems like yesterday that we were all still together. The family is no longer complete, occasions are no longer the same and even though I've been home, the home seems so quiet and empty. Mummy misses you so so much and I can't imagine how she will be once I've gone back.

There will be moments of reminisce every day. We think back about what we used to do together, we think back about the years of struggles you had, we think back of the places we enjoyed eating together, we think back of the places we went together, we think back of your actions, gestures, remarks, comments. There are days when I walk around the house and thought you'll be home from school soon. I long to hear the way you greet me, I miss our conversations. I Miss You, Carrie. Really miss you.

On Saturday, we met Daddy and Mummy for supper after their church session at Lighthouse. Daddy commented that he is truly seeing God's every blessings now. He had the week he spent with you before your last op was one of the best times ever. Because of my flight, you delayed your op by a week and he truly enjoyed spending that whole week with you. Everything that he mentioned made me wish I had also spent that whole week with you. I wished I had been there for you as you went for your op. I wish I had been around when you were recuperating. I wished I had come back while you were better and I could spend more time with you doing things together. Although I am glad for that 3 weeks, I wished for better days.

I look back at your pictures today and I realized that I missed out on so many things that was going on in your life. I'm sorry I wasn't a better sister. Whatever it is, I will remember my promise to you. I thank God for you. You will always be a part of me and Adrian. You will always be remembered in everything that I do. I will also always be happy as I know that is what you want me to be.

I love you, my silly image. Love you lots and forever...

Sense of Loss

It's been 6 days since you moved to stay in a more beautiful place. Not a day passed without all of us thinking about you.

Today is a pretty special day because for the first time in our lives, I went to church with Daddy & Mummy and you know who else? Ur Ah Gor and Angie. Isn't that special? I know you will find it just as special and sweet. We sang quite a few meaningful and touching hymns today. The hymns spoke to my heart especially this song that is titled "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus".

Ah Gor and I prepared ourselves with some sweets in case we were feeling sleepy during the sermon but we didn't need it. Pastor Jeremy delivered a very touching sermon today. He touched on Acts Chapter 27. The gist of the sermon is that God never promised us a smooth journey even though we may be Christians. God never promised us that life will be a bed of roses. In fact, he said that there will be many trials and tribulations but with faith, God will see us through.

How very true this is. You know, God spoke to me today and touched my heart. In fact, I wanna thank you coz it's through you that I started praying and remembering God again. It is through your strong faith in God that I got inspired.

You know, I see a change in your Ah Gor. He is really excited about this baby and he is even persuading Er Jie and I to also have 1. He said we will not regret and will be just as excited as he is. I think you will also be laughing when you hear him say that. Angie has been coming to our house or meeting us for dinner these few days and it feels weird to see Ah Gor being so attentive and so lovey dovey with Angie. The things he says send shivers down my spine. Hee... I know you are gonna say I'm very bad but it's the truth. Well I must add that it is a consolation he isn't like Daddy so unromantic.

Things are also going pretty well for Daddy & Mummy. I hope they will continue to be better and grow stronger together as the days go by. Hopefully they will have a really special time for their 35th year anniversary this year. I will be gathering all of us to discuss what special plans we can do for both of them. Don't forget to give me some ideas too!!!

Oh image, I forgot to tell you that I spotted some new Kukumalu items. I bought myself 2 pencils (different colors) and a retractable eraser with refills. Will be thinking of you each time I use them.

I love you and miss you so much, Image. Don't worry ok, I will keep my letters going with news and stories. Take care and be happy always too. I will and whatever difficulties I encounter, I will remember your Smile song. That's for teaching me this song.

Loving You Always,

Feifei