Say Goodbye

"Did you ever love me?
Does it even matter?
Did you even notice the whole world shatter?
I just want to hold you ‘til you know I’m sorry
But I just keep it all inside
That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye"


I was listening to this song when I realized the lyrics were exactly my sentiments.


I wonder if he ever loved me. I wonder if it ever mattered to him and if he noticed that my whole world was shattered then. I just wanted to hold him till he knew I was sorry... sorry for everything I did and everything I failed to do. But I just kept it all inside thinking that this way it wouldn't hurt so much when we said goodbye...


In actual fact, it had hurt like hell and only I knew it. It still hurts now and I'm still alone in it.